I can give you a list of times in my life that I felt responsible for the outcome of things. When I was young, I felt like I had to keep the peace in the family; growing up, I felt I had to keep those I was in relationships with happy. Or, even getting the jobs I applied for, making the money I needed to keep a roof over my head.
The thing about all those circumstances I mentioned is that failure is inherently built in and so I struggled with never doing or being enough. And in all those circumstances, the outcome was never my responsibility. My level of thinking was as high as I could reach or what I could accomplish on my own and that kind of life is tiring.
After Monica died, I saw how crazy it was to think I had control over any of it. It took her death and her example of being certain of God’s provision and started on a journey to stop working so hard to make everything happen. When I began Grief 2 Great Day, I made a conscious decision not to do that. I still had to work hard but I gave the outcome to God. And it’s so much better. I’m not fully healed of this issue but certainly far from where I was.
The irony with us humans is that we try to control all the things we cannot and yet take no responsibility for the things we do have control over. Well, maybe not you, but that has been my experience.
Listen today to see how life can be when you allow God to control the outcome of your circumstances but of your life as well.
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